My life used to be easier. I'm sick of making decisions. It's a shame that it happened so soon, because this is only the beginning. I'm going to move to one of those super tiny and remote islands in the South Pacific. You can only visit if you bring bug spray and Resee's and a good attitude. I don't want to solve any more problems at the moment. I want to take the next little boat to my little island and listen to music and eat ice cream until I get super fat but only it won't matter because there will be hardly any people. Or problems. Fabulous! I'm definitely going to bring my dog Chance because he's cute and friendly and I miss him so incredibly much. I think I'll have a zip lining course installed in the trees. That'll be fun. Oooh and Elton John will come have a special performance there and I can sing and listen to musicals all I want without anyone telling me to shut up. Yep. Reality was alright, but I'm over it. I'm going to San Sebastian tomorrow, so I'll just catch a boat from there.
I actually really am going to San Sebastian tomorrow. I need a day to escape the stress of being here at the moment. Im excited for a day at the ocean. I can wear my new bathing suit, listen to my music, and tan. That's close enough to that imaginary life I just created. I hope the water is warm enough to swim in! Ciao for now.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Tabby Kat.
This past week has a been a crazy one, that's for sure. It's been filled with stress, lots of time out of the house, and goodbyes. On Friday night we all had to say goodbye to Tabea. We went to the Animal Park and sat in our circle and wrote in each others' journals and laughed. After awhile it began to get cold so we moved to Rob's to eat French fries and hang out one last time all together (for now, at least). We played our favorite game that we like to call "mostly". Mostly is where you say "Who is the most likely to _____." And then we all point at the person we think is most likely to do that particular thing. We also really like to play "Who's who?" Which is just placing ourselves in pop culture/fictional characters. So basically we like to talk about ourselves? I think that's what this is getting to....hahahaha. I always fall into the mom/big sister/wants a family/will have 14 kids and live on a farm/looks like a watermelon in that pink and black shirt category. So that's fun.
After our time at Rob's we all headed back to Tabs' apartment so she could say goodbye to her host family and we could get her luggage. Her luggage was incredibly heavy, but it was only about a 10-15 minute walk, so we survived. The harder part was actually saying goodbye. We all love Tabs so incredibly much. We've talked about this recently and it's as though we're more than just friends: we are soul mates. We all complete each other so perfectly. I couldn't possibly love them anymore than I already do. So you can imagine how the goodbye was.
Three days later and I really miss Tabea. I spent so much time with her this year. She is such an amazing woman. I love her to death. I know that we will see each other again...and it may even be this summer, as crazy as that is. I hope it's soon.
After our time at Rob's we all headed back to Tabs' apartment so she could say goodbye to her host family and we could get her luggage. Her luggage was incredibly heavy, but it was only about a 10-15 minute walk, so we survived. The harder part was actually saying goodbye. We all love Tabs so incredibly much. We've talked about this recently and it's as though we're more than just friends: we are soul mates. We all complete each other so perfectly. I couldn't possibly love them anymore than I already do. So you can imagine how the goodbye was.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Life Goes On.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Life isn't always cupcakes and butterflies and I'm realizing this more and more with each day. Bad things happen to good people all the time and we live in a world where politics can be more important than ethics. It's sad. But it's life. And it's all worth it. Sometimes we feel like giving up when it seems as though the whole world is caving in on you...but we keep fighting. The fighters fight 'til the end. We come out stronger and with more life experience. In a way it's almost a good thing because we learn to appreciate the good things in life so much more. Like eating mint chocolate chip ice cream on a sunny day and playing with your dog in the yard. The little things. They're the best. They're worth it all.
Prontisimo.
Prontisimo in Spanish means extremely fast, or soon. That is how I feel about what is going on at the moment to some of my exchanger friends. On May 17th all of our host parents received an email from the Rotary member who is the head of exchange in Pamplona. The email stated that those of us who are in Segundo Bachillerato (senior class) will end their exchange on May 20th. At that point it was up to the host families if they wanted to let us stay longer, with permission from our parents in the U.S., taking all responsibility of we students until we fly home. The Rotary here states that we are no longer their responsibility. Three days in advance. The 20th is tomorrow. I am very fortunate to have the host family that I do, because they are willing to let me stay until I leave for the Euro trip with my family (June 11th). On the other hand, some families are not so willing to let us stay in their houses. My friend Tabea is boarding a plane to her home in Germany on Saturday. She's been packing and planning and printing out tickets. She can no longer come to Malaga with the rest of the group, but she's handling everything really well. She is so excited to see her family and friends again in Germany, but sad to leave Pamplona, and as we like to call ourselves, the Pamplonians. Now, Mitchell's situation is a bit more problematic than Tabs' because his current host family says that he must leave on the 20th. There are no flights out of Pamplona before then with such short notice. He needs a place to live. By tomorrow.
With all this said, I can now tell you what how we've been spending our past couple of days. All of us have been calling home telling our parents to write up permission letters, get them notarized, scanned, and sent to our counselor stating that we're basically no longer exchange students. That was the easy part. Tabs sat in an internet cafe yesterday with her computer in front of her and coffee in hand. We all met her at the cafe and talked in a state of shock once we heard the news about her early departure. We don't want to see her go. Not yet. We were supposed to have a month left with her. Our Tabby Kat. We then left Tabs to talk to her mom and figure things out while we went to the supermarket and a million places down town looking for flyers with places for rent for Mitchell. We got quite a few numbers and held on to them to call later. Natalie and Mitchell went home for lunch and Elle, Athena, and I went to a store to get some bread, cheese, yogurt, and cereal for lunch. We walked to our favorite park and met Tabs there and ate our lunch. We stayed there for hours forgetting about all these problems and laughing about all of our memories while we created more. It was the perfect lunch. Later, Bex, Nat, and Mitch met us there and we talked while Becca drew cheebies of all of us (cheebies are little animated pictures of people...I don't know the right way to describe them...) and they are so cute!! After an hour or so we left the park to look at hostel prices for Mitchell. On the way I fell for no apparent reason...until I looked down and saw that my new shoes had broken. It was only my second time wearing them so I was sad. Bex reassured me we could super glue them (thank goodness...they were 30 Euro). We went to lots of hostels and found out that they were all pretty expensive...about 30 Euro a night. That's really expensive for a hostel. In Madrid we paid about 12 Euro a night. The we all split up. Mitch and Elle went to another hostel, Nat and Athena went to put money on their bus cards, and Becca and I went to buy super glue. We all met at Athena and Mitch's bus stop. Becca fixed my shoe and then we all went home for dinner. I had fried plantains, cheese, and a banana smoothie. It's one of my favorite meals here :)
Last night I received the "okay" from the guy in charge here saying that he received the permission from my parents and I can travel and basically do what I want...(because he is not responsible...) Tonight we are all supposed to meet our counselors at 10 in the evening (that's right...PM....seriously?) to get our insurance fund of 400 Euro. I'll be happy to have that money and to be done. I have had an absolutely incredible experience here. I wouldn't trade it for the world, but I can't say it was because of the Spanish Rotary. I was told before I came that the Rotary was not strong. I was asked if I was a strong person and I replied "yes, of course." It's a good thing I am...and it's a great thing that I have amazing exchange student friends here. I don't believe that it is acceptable to throw a student out on the street with three days notice. I don't think that is ethical in any way. Now my friends are in such a pickle (Athena decided this was the best word :P haha). We are making the best of it though, and still having a great time with the time we have all together. Que pena, que pena. Have a nice Thursday everyone.
With all this said, I can now tell you what how we've been spending our past couple of days. All of us have been calling home telling our parents to write up permission letters, get them notarized, scanned, and sent to our counselor stating that we're basically no longer exchange students. That was the easy part. Tabs sat in an internet cafe yesterday with her computer in front of her and coffee in hand. We all met her at the cafe and talked in a state of shock once we heard the news about her early departure. We don't want to see her go. Not yet. We were supposed to have a month left with her. Our Tabby Kat. We then left Tabs to talk to her mom and figure things out while we went to the supermarket and a million places down town looking for flyers with places for rent for Mitchell. We got quite a few numbers and held on to them to call later. Natalie and Mitchell went home for lunch and Elle, Athena, and I went to a store to get some bread, cheese, yogurt, and cereal for lunch. We walked to our favorite park and met Tabs there and ate our lunch. We stayed there for hours forgetting about all these problems and laughing about all of our memories while we created more. It was the perfect lunch. Later, Bex, Nat, and Mitch met us there and we talked while Becca drew cheebies of all of us (cheebies are little animated pictures of people...I don't know the right way to describe them...) and they are so cute!! After an hour or so we left the park to look at hostel prices for Mitchell. On the way I fell for no apparent reason...until I looked down and saw that my new shoes had broken. It was only my second time wearing them so I was sad. Bex reassured me we could super glue them (thank goodness...they were 30 Euro). We went to lots of hostels and found out that they were all pretty expensive...about 30 Euro a night. That's really expensive for a hostel. In Madrid we paid about 12 Euro a night. The we all split up. Mitch and Elle went to another hostel, Nat and Athena went to put money on their bus cards, and Becca and I went to buy super glue. We all met at Athena and Mitch's bus stop. Becca fixed my shoe and then we all went home for dinner. I had fried plantains, cheese, and a banana smoothie. It's one of my favorite meals here :)
Last night I received the "okay" from the guy in charge here saying that he received the permission from my parents and I can travel and basically do what I want...(because he is not responsible...) Tonight we are all supposed to meet our counselors at 10 in the evening (that's right...PM....seriously?) to get our insurance fund of 400 Euro. I'll be happy to have that money and to be done. I have had an absolutely incredible experience here. I wouldn't trade it for the world, but I can't say it was because of the Spanish Rotary. I was told before I came that the Rotary was not strong. I was asked if I was a strong person and I replied "yes, of course." It's a good thing I am...and it's a great thing that I have amazing exchange student friends here. I don't believe that it is acceptable to throw a student out on the street with three days notice. I don't think that is ethical in any way. Now my friends are in such a pickle (Athena decided this was the best word :P haha). We are making the best of it though, and still having a great time with the time we have all together. Que pena, que pena. Have a nice Thursday everyone.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Bittersweet.
My year is winding down. It really is starting to come to a close. My friends here are so excited about our Malaga trip at the end of the month and all of my family back home is ecstatic about coming to Europe to visit me and travel and I can't help but not feel a thing. Once I board that bus for Barcelona to see my family, I will have said goodbye to a very special host family and six of my best friends. The weight of this dreaded heart ache gets heavier and heavier with each day. On the other hand, I will be so thrilled to see my family again. I'm counting on it being the best moment of my life...but when set next to all of the depressing goodbyes everything just evens out. I feel so neutral. It's just a very bittersweet situation. So for now, I'm just excited about this moment. I know that I love my life at this moment in time and that is enough. I go crazy when I let all of these other thoughts flood my mind and then I start to freak out...which is never good.
This year has been beyond my wildest dreams. It's been difficult and wonderful and stressful yet absolutely amazing. I am living my dream. I am speaking a foreign (well not so foreign anymore) language and living in a country an ocean away from my hometown and I did this without not knowing a single person here before September...this is what I've wanted for so long and I'm so happy that I've been blessed with this chance of a lifetime...but I know this is just a chapter in my exciting adventurous life. I don't know exactly what the content of the next chapters will be, but I think I know some of their titles. I needn't worry about all that yet. Tomorrow holds something new and exciting for the Spain chapter: I'm going to jump on the trampoline at Mitch's house with Athena and Tabs. This may not sound like a big thing, but trust me, there are bound to be many funny stories from it.
I'm happy with today and excited about tomorrow. And that's enough.
This year has been beyond my wildest dreams. It's been difficult and wonderful and stressful yet absolutely amazing. I am living my dream. I am speaking a foreign (well not so foreign anymore) language and living in a country an ocean away from my hometown and I did this without not knowing a single person here before September...this is what I've wanted for so long and I'm so happy that I've been blessed with this chance of a lifetime...but I know this is just a chapter in my exciting adventurous life. I don't know exactly what the content of the next chapters will be, but I think I know some of their titles. I needn't worry about all that yet. Tomorrow holds something new and exciting for the Spain chapter: I'm going to jump on the trampoline at Mitch's house with Athena and Tabs. This may not sound like a big thing, but trust me, there are bound to be many funny stories from it.
I'm happy with today and excited about tomorrow. And that's enough.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Perfection.
At this moment in my life I can't help but think, "is this what perfect feels like?" The only way my life could get better is if someone offered me and Emily camel rides for tomorrow. Other than that, I feel like this is the life. This is what I signed up for. This is what I signed for with BLUE INK on four different applications, endless papers, and visas forms. After everything I have been through, I can say it was more than worth it. I feel so happy I could cry. So would you all like to know why I am so happy? Well I'm going to tell you anyways. (Isn't this fun? I can do whatever I want on my own website)
Since I last wrote I found out that I finished school today. So I am officially done with high school forever. It's fabulous because I now have the rest of the month to hang out with my friends and do what I want. It was a surprise to me though. I thought I had to go until May 26th. YAY. I'm so happy that I'm finally done.
My friends finally came home from London and I waited at the bus station for them and ran and hugged them. I was so happy that they were FINALLY home. 12 days is a long time. I'm so happy that the whole group is back together. That same day I got my Easter package from my mom which included socks, Easter candy, a spoon bracelet, and buttons. I then made 4 button bracelets later that night.
On Saturday we had a Rotary District Conference in San Sebastian. We went to this gorgeous mountain top/seaside hotel and mingled and ate pintxos until we had to speak a little bit about ourselves in our smashing Rotary Blazers filled with pics from all of the world. I love them. After the conference we went to a Sidraria, which is a big restaurant with giant barrels of hard cider with long tables. The Rotary members kept telling us to have more sidra, so that we did. Lunch was a lot of fun. After lunch we went on a walk through San Sebastian and met up with our friend Andrew who lives there before getting on the bus and heading home. On the bus rides there and back we played "Who's who" by placing each of us in famous characters in pop-culture. We like talking about ourselves....That night I went home to an empty house so I showered and then got a call from my host family asking if I was hungry. They brought me home an entire meal from McDonald's. It was the first time I've had anything from there in months. And it tasted pretty alright :)
Since Sunday was Mother's Day I spent it at home with my family. We went on a two hour bike ride with my host aunt and uncle's family. We rode to the park and sat and talked there for awhile. Once we were home I gave Nuria, my host mom, the card, lotion, and button bracelet I made for her. That night our power went out that night for a minute and then came back on in every room except for my host parents' so Nuria asked if she could bring the sewing machine in my room and sew there since there was a light. Of course I said of course and she sewed sheets and pants while I wrote in my journal. It was so nice because we just talked the whole time. She then noticed my colossal collection of jewelry and got excited. She said that she also had a lot and she brought all of it in my room to show me! She ended up giving me two rings and a bracelet. (The other day I was doing the dished after lunch and she gave me a bracelet for no reason!! So sweet!) She then asked if I could make one of her bracelets smaller, so I did. It was pretty easy. I love my host mom so much.
Yesterday I went shopping and bought new shoes and a skirt. Today I also went shopping and bought a bathing suit. I'm done with shopping for a little while...Tonight for dinner we had this amazing squash soup with cheese and french fries in it and it was so amazing! After dinner I helped Juan Diego with studying for his tests tomorrow. At first he was really shy, but then he really opened up and we had such a fun time. He's adorable and sweet! (He's seven, by the way). After studying I washed the dishes and then my host parents came home from grocery shopping so I helped put the groceries away. And after, I knew my life was perfect. I'm not just living with this family: I am a part of this family. That's the best feeling as an exchange student. Feeling wanted and included. I feel at home here. I'm oh so happy. And now I'm oh so tired. Goodnight everyone. Besos.
Since I last wrote I found out that I finished school today. So I am officially done with high school forever. It's fabulous because I now have the rest of the month to hang out with my friends and do what I want. It was a surprise to me though. I thought I had to go until May 26th. YAY. I'm so happy that I'm finally done.
My friends finally came home from London and I waited at the bus station for them and ran and hugged them. I was so happy that they were FINALLY home. 12 days is a long time. I'm so happy that the whole group is back together. That same day I got my Easter package from my mom which included socks, Easter candy, a spoon bracelet, and buttons. I then made 4 button bracelets later that night.
On Saturday we had a Rotary District Conference in San Sebastian. We went to this gorgeous mountain top/seaside hotel and mingled and ate pintxos until we had to speak a little bit about ourselves in our smashing Rotary Blazers filled with pics from all of the world. I love them. After the conference we went to a Sidraria, which is a big restaurant with giant barrels of hard cider with long tables. The Rotary members kept telling us to have more sidra, so that we did. Lunch was a lot of fun. After lunch we went on a walk through San Sebastian and met up with our friend Andrew who lives there before getting on the bus and heading home. On the bus rides there and back we played "Who's who" by placing each of us in famous characters in pop-culture. We like talking about ourselves....That night I went home to an empty house so I showered and then got a call from my host family asking if I was hungry. They brought me home an entire meal from McDonald's. It was the first time I've had anything from there in months. And it tasted pretty alright :)
Since Sunday was Mother's Day I spent it at home with my family. We went on a two hour bike ride with my host aunt and uncle's family. We rode to the park and sat and talked there for awhile. Once we were home I gave Nuria, my host mom, the card, lotion, and button bracelet I made for her. That night our power went out that night for a minute and then came back on in every room except for my host parents' so Nuria asked if she could bring the sewing machine in my room and sew there since there was a light. Of course I said of course and she sewed sheets and pants while I wrote in my journal. It was so nice because we just talked the whole time. She then noticed my colossal collection of jewelry and got excited. She said that she also had a lot and she brought all of it in my room to show me! She ended up giving me two rings and a bracelet. (The other day I was doing the dished after lunch and she gave me a bracelet for no reason!! So sweet!) She then asked if I could make one of her bracelets smaller, so I did. It was pretty easy. I love my host mom so much.
Yesterday I went shopping and bought new shoes and a skirt. Today I also went shopping and bought a bathing suit. I'm done with shopping for a little while...Tonight for dinner we had this amazing squash soup with cheese and french fries in it and it was so amazing! After dinner I helped Juan Diego with studying for his tests tomorrow. At first he was really shy, but then he really opened up and we had such a fun time. He's adorable and sweet! (He's seven, by the way). After studying I washed the dishes and then my host parents came home from grocery shopping so I helped put the groceries away. And after, I knew my life was perfect. I'm not just living with this family: I am a part of this family. That's the best feeling as an exchange student. Feeling wanted and included. I feel at home here. I'm oh so happy. And now I'm oh so tired. Goodnight everyone. Besos.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
SING.
I need to sing. Really loudly. For a long time. I went to Tabs' house this evening and watched Burlesque for the second time and it left me wanting to sing at the top of my lungs. Like really sing. Belt, if you will. The good news is that tomorrow I will be able to. I found out today that I have exams tomorrow and Friday this week and then I am done with school in Spain. How's that for good news? Anyways, I'll be able to sing because I don't have to be at the school until 12:40 for my history exam, which means I have the house to myself all morning which means I can run around the apartment in my underwear and sing if I want to. We'll see. :P Haha. So, as of Friday, I am officially finished with high school forever. It won't be too hard for me to say goodbye to school here. It's difficult and boring for me, although it did provide me with a lot of journaling and reading time. And, you know, helped with my Spanish...just a little bit. Kidding. It helped incredibly. The biggest thing is that another chapter in my life will be closing. I'm actually going to college. Finally. Am I ready for this?! Gahh. But seriously, I'm really excited to go to Ohio State this year. I'm so happy with my decision. Well, that's all my news for now. Ciao!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Less Than Two Months.
What a scary thought. I have had to change my ticket for home to July 1st instead of July 9th due to San Fermin. The Rotary does not want us to be in Pamplona for the running of the bulls this year because 1. Most families leave on vacation so we wouldn't have a place to stay and 2. It's a little dangerous. Both of these rules make sense, I just wish I would have known this back in October when I scheduled my flight back home, not to mention my excitement about being here for San Fermin. Oh well, not this year. I'll be back. That's for sure!
So with my last two months I am going to have the absolute time of my life! I'm going to Malaga as soon as school lets out at the end of the month and then I'll return to Pamplona for my final week here before my family comes to visit. We'll then go on our vacation and I'll stay in Belgium a few days after they leave with Livy (I hope...I need to clarify this with her first!) and then I'll be back in Pamplona for one evening with my 2nd host family. Then they will take me to the airport the next day. It's a shame that I won't be with all my friends on my last night here, but I would have had to say goodbye at some point. And in the end, I wouldn't have changed a thing. We've lived a great exchange together. Even though my Spanish isn't all it could be yet, it's still pretty good, and I'm going to keep up with it. I have my life to perfect it, but I only have so much time with all of my friends here, together in our city. It's not our fault they placed us 6 Americans and 1 German with fabulous English all together! Anyways. I'm happy.
I should also take this time to say how much I adore my new host family. I've only been here a week and I've adjusted almost completely. It just keeps getting easier. I swear. My host mom is such a fabulous cook, I can't get over it. I enjoy everything we eat. I love all of the Ecuadorian food. I'm so happy that I'm in my ninth month and I'm still trying new things. How great is this? Other great things about my day:
1. My 7 year old host brother told me that he wants to be an astronaut when he grows up.
2. I found out that I don't have to go to school on Monday and Tuesday next week. Woo!
3. Talking to Tess on facebook made me really happy. I laughed a lot.
4. I went to the supermarket across from my building to get some flour for my host mom and found it to be amazing. I'll be going back there in the near future. I mean they had every type of Milka chocolate bar that they make. My favorite it Choco Swing! And they have it!
5. . . . I get excited way too easily.
6. This isn't about my day, but I finished The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo yesterday and it was fantastic. I highly recommend it if you're looking for a new book to read. It's one of those that gets your heart pounding and you literally cannot put down the book or you will have serious issues...those are truly the best.
It's time for me to get some rest. Mitchell, Elle, and Natalie come home from London tomorrow after two weeks. I can't wait to see them. I've missed them so much. Besos. Ciao moo cow. (I made that up last night....can I say that?)
So with my last two months I am going to have the absolute time of my life! I'm going to Malaga as soon as school lets out at the end of the month and then I'll return to Pamplona for my final week here before my family comes to visit. We'll then go on our vacation and I'll stay in Belgium a few days after they leave with Livy (I hope...I need to clarify this with her first!) and then I'll be back in Pamplona for one evening with my 2nd host family. Then they will take me to the airport the next day. It's a shame that I won't be with all my friends on my last night here, but I would have had to say goodbye at some point. And in the end, I wouldn't have changed a thing. We've lived a great exchange together. Even though my Spanish isn't all it could be yet, it's still pretty good, and I'm going to keep up with it. I have my life to perfect it, but I only have so much time with all of my friends here, together in our city. It's not our fault they placed us 6 Americans and 1 German with fabulous English all together! Anyways. I'm happy.
I should also take this time to say how much I adore my new host family. I've only been here a week and I've adjusted almost completely. It just keeps getting easier. I swear. My host mom is such a fabulous cook, I can't get over it. I enjoy everything we eat. I love all of the Ecuadorian food. I'm so happy that I'm in my ninth month and I'm still trying new things. How great is this? Other great things about my day:
1. My 7 year old host brother told me that he wants to be an astronaut when he grows up.
2. I found out that I don't have to go to school on Monday and Tuesday next week. Woo!
3. Talking to Tess on facebook made me really happy. I laughed a lot.
4. I went to the supermarket across from my building to get some flour for my host mom and found it to be amazing. I'll be going back there in the near future. I mean they had every type of Milka chocolate bar that they make. My favorite it Choco Swing! And they have it!
5. . . . I get excited way too easily.
6. This isn't about my day, but I finished The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo yesterday and it was fantastic. I highly recommend it if you're looking for a new book to read. It's one of those that gets your heart pounding and you literally cannot put down the book or you will have serious issues...those are truly the best.
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